It was pointed out to me that Ja is a little less worrisome to a larger group of people in general than either God or Allah and it is all the same thing as long as you are thinking the same thing. The guy next to me is sitting where I normally sit and spraying me every minute or so.
Barney saw my nigger message and said I should consider him the overseer from among them, and we talked about people and the materials that they are made of. People have been threatening to throw out Indiana's book entirely for more than 100 years, really since the KKK was coined as a term, and Tennessee mentioned that they wrote me down in their own book. Those books are awful things to look at sometimes, and the process of searching a book of lies utterly for the point at which one particular person who started lying about me began to write in it at all is going to expose people who are not made of as firm a crystal as one would hope to resonations that could entirely shatter them.
A lot of people have so little real book learning in general that they don't understand the purpose of books of any kind, regardless of whatever is written about them in books or other kinds of files. And people always say that they can "quite any time" any kind of activity that anyone would wear a concerned expression about when this is seldom the case.
Lately I've been noticing that the rubber handle caps on my bike have been moved around a lot, I guess people are putting trackers in the hollow tubes, because I've decided since its wintertime and I am less inclined to go outside I should get my main walk in by walking instead of riding to the library. I find it hard to ride uphill in the winter because when my breathing rate increases the air that hits my lungs is colder.
The guy next to me looks a little more connected, pentecostal countenance but not a poor countenance, I think he's part of a group activity that involves figuring out how often they have to hit me with the spray to overcome what I am doing to counter it. They have to buy what they put int he spray though, I typically only buy the vodka part of what I put into two ounce bottles that take me a couple of weeks to empty. I don't even pay for the electric that I use to heat infuse it on the stove for over a week (about 20 ounces at a time) so you do the economic math on that, another standard cold war really.
In the meantime, as I change the factors (Washington State just sent information that they have corrected what they wrote in their book based only upon what they directly witnessed and that lies or unsubstantiated reports were made about me, the gist being that they assessed that at the age of 18 I was seeking better people than those who had sexually abused me and exploited me and doing better than many in that attempt, that I was not using IV drugs or engaging in prostitution but I was very confused and struggling with sanity or something to that effect) I can observe different parts of my system more clearly, not only do I see what the herbs that I am using are doing but I see what the poisons that are being put on me are doing in a different way. Its very similar to but much more specific than what is possible when using psychadellic substances to change perception and perspective on what is normal or what a person has gotten used to.
(Missouri lost their book before I briefly was at a rest stop in their state, Colorado doesn't write much about tourists, but I wonder if or how they recorded the attempt to blame my death on a cougar when I was 17)
I did used to try to tell people that things were not that bad racism wise, until Shoots vouched for his associate, at which point I said words didn't exist to really explain the situation and for that there was the word nigger.
