I was out smoking on my porch when one of the women who works at the Boy's and Girl's club walked back from walking a child home in the dark when Sherry told her that Sarah had been in a "chain reaction accident, no big deal but Janice told her to go get checked out" but the only story of anything traffic related in the HT was about a woman with a boyfriend and a seven year old child who was shot in the hand and leg in a "road rage" incident. And I got to thinking about how Janice seemed to really imply to me that I should try to take control over the leadership of the neighborhood. I told her I really was not a criminal, but even if I was these were not people I could make any structural use of, and the implication in what she was hedging around that was going on here called to mind something Gramps really inculcated into my structural thinking that these people I found easily recognizable by type were not the kind that would act any other way but to resent any leadership that wasn't absolute and all powerful, they would make demands that couldn't be fulfilled of people who were offering things that they did not actually own and that eventually expectations would not be met and they would react with lethal or life changing violence that I have been trained since early childhood to avoid. I call it "avoiding excessive inclusion" other people call it standing out or being a nerd. I am also (im)mortally afraid of promising what I can't deliver in return for cash of ambiguous origins.
Its the same as predicting that wolves will behave in a certain way in a certain situation.
But I also told her that my family had a criminal wing, but it was global and comprised of worst case scenarios that could not be avoided or overcome in current circumstances so it was a completely different animal. I may or may not have mentioned sorcery, but she started comparing me to Johnny, I may have said something like more immediate solutions weren't entirely calibrated to be under control yet and that limited proximity of events (until I learn to aim better I wont be firing that close to my own foot but my negotiation skills are more mature).
I think though that we are reaching proper tension in my life, with a husband and brother working the horizontal axis and a father and son on the vertical. That sounds a little different in words than it looks on a diagram.
Anyway, I watched the Pacquiao Cotto fight, the topic of seven championships in seven classes came up, they wont let that happen again any time soon. When I was watching Nyambayar fight I noticed a number of things. One was that he was better skilled than his weight class, and that he needs to get out of the range where he can be learned and trained by other fighters, He could learn bad habits from fighting so far below his skill development such as its not so hard to do this. The biggest thing I worry about is that he needs to process his concept of the humanity in his opponents. When his opponent tried a dirty trick on him to make the ref think he'd fouled which this particular ref didn't run with but I think previous ones have and even with replay correction it has a psychological effect (in Gramps' day that didn't exist, and the only reason he didn't fight in the Olympics is because the Lenape Lenai of Indiana didn't ever have documentation or recognition, which was discovered early in the trials process and then the whole country found out Indiana was harboring wild Indians among other disturbing things) then he commenced to put down the threat to his flock. Latin Americans are highly skilled in eliciting sympathy from others, I saw that in Cotto, but Pacquiao used his face for a speed bag and it was clear that is all he saw in his mind. You can put some pretty cute faces on yours to help with this if necessary, I'm thinking emojis.
One way or another the over sympathizing will end, sooner or later, the hard way or easier, but there's a limit to how many things a fighter can learn the hard way, and they are better used for more difficult things to learn than this point.
