One day I was sitting around with the other women in the back of the homeless shelter and one of them said "how do you like this place" I said "it could be worse" and she said "not much, do you want to stay here forever" I said "of cource not"
she said, "you will if you dont do something".
I had told them I had tried to go to college and left because it "didnt seem right" and I wanted to try life without a college degree and she said "hows that workin out for ya" and I said "not too well".
They told me that I had self control, and that they were all on good behavior because I was around but if I saw how people really were I wouldnt like them and that if they had half the self control I had they would be out of there and that if I stayed I would die, because to survive in that place you have to take things that arent yours and do what isnt right and they could see I'd rather die than that.
My way seemed blocked, because to get out I had to go live with satanists who I knew would lie to doctors, drug me and have me locked up in a mental instatution whenever they wanted. But they said I would get through that, that isnt a block, that is an impediment and it would stink but I would overcome it.
So I did that, and they did that and when I came back here I did all the things I had every right to do but feared the consequences of doing and I recieved all the consequences. and I have to ask you now "hows that workin out for you?"
