Being a head of state has its limitations. Being a post head of state is actually less limiting.
The reason I needed to find jobs on the ground dispite my skill was youth, and less than perfect understanding of human nature. I dont know why I complain about your abuse of me. The more you abuse me the sooner I can have a richer life style working directly. Post heads of state can actually offer more cover than sitting heads.
Some people have these delusions of the life they could have led if they werent so damn good at killing for hire. Some people have these delusions that somehow what they are doing is harmful to society.
When I kill, unless it is directly in self defence, you never know the person was murdered. I have a surgeons skill. People often will die the next day or begin an illness that though coincidental is perfectly acceptable as natural. I may be limited due to a false belief in the good nature of the common man, but that limitation is lifting quick. I mean, I am easily angered at the corruption of policians so that I can let them die in any way requested, fast, slow, painful, easy, ironic however is requested and I lose no sleep over it, but a business man or a family man or an ordinary woman it was once harder for me to understand the level of their threat to nations.
People depend on their governments to be just and effective. People suffer immeasurably when that expectation is in vain. The people who suffere the most are the people who need the government the most. Not people with families and status and connections but people who have nothing between them and exploitation but the rule of law.
How many people have died under the fingers typing these thoughts? I dont even know. I barely remember any, and usually its only the self defence kills that I remember at all. If I go full time that will change. I will have sufficent bleed through that I may never be unaware of what I do again. But I think I can live with that very peacefully.
Im sick today like I didnt sleep at all. As ordered I tried to sleep a few hours before and after I went on duty. Someone decided to boil onions and rev engines during that time. The Japanes and Toltecs actually find their killing gets better with lack of sleep, though I waste a lot of energy sneaking when everyone else is also awakened by the same things, the more tired I am the better I get. Its odd, but if 70 people got cancer and heart disease last night, if I have to go out tonight I will easily increase that number by 10. Tomarrow if I dont sleep when I need to, atleast another 10 can be added again.
I think its funny how you are still trying to keep sharon alive. Do you know that I often make pathways on my way to hard targets, doing little favors on a long list of targets? The further I must travel the greater the distruction.
I guess leaving me alone is not something you are capable of, but I got the people egging you on last night. Tomarrow night its their bosses.
