Sunday, March 2, 2008

Doted tea and Crossed eyes

In May of 1980 Becky Bush married Bill Oeding. Shortly there after I was issued a birth certificate that said Becky Rinks Oeding and William A Oeding were my natural parents. I was also issued a social security number at that same time. I remember seeing a pair of documents prior to this time that were explained to me as my birth cirtificate and social security card. I thought "me" and "mine" was defined as belonging to my self who I called "holly bush" and I wrote "holly bush" on my sleeping bag and baseball mit and some other belongings, like school work that I handed in, so I assumed pretty reasonably that this had been my name prior to 1980. I was also told that Gary Bush was my biological father.
When I was told that I was a liar for telling the story like this, when I was told holly bush was older than me and dead, and that Bill Oeding was legally my birth father, I didnt know what to believe any more. I remembered the things I used to tell people about who I was when every I would not say I was Holly Bush and I began to investigate that story, because I noticed that I wasnt creating it but remembering it. A child can be told what they really remember didnt really happen pretty easily and on this premise I began my investigatons.