I remember knowing I was Shur, but after the first brain surgery, when I forgot being muslim all the time and started calling becky mom, when mom realized she could leave me alone more often because I was a little safer, I became Not Shur. The problem with Shur was that is not nation marked. There are Shurs all over asia in every country as far as I know. I had a variety of young adult names picked out by my parents depending on where I showed up asking for help remembering why I seem to think I forgot something. So when I showed up in little tibet with these questions I ended up with Detzu (debt sue) because I couldnt be sure again after being not sure for so long so I needed to just face I was someone else and that people owed me for what had happened. But I did show up early. People dont normally come to tibet when they think they are women, and Dad had heard the song "A boy named Sue" but I had also been hanging out with the Souix. People were also trying to tell my parents how much I owed them, when they had found out about how many times they had tried to get money in my name and how little of it I got to touch.
Dad was actually annoyed I hadnt sex changed before aproaching, that used to be impossible to avoid, so he made me do it anyway for a little while, because he wanted to see what I thought about men and about women.
But when they told me my name was Detzu it really was still not sure, as the future hadnt happened yet.
*when they said my name my comprehension of the surface meaning was immediate, but I hadnt blissed out for more than a second before I wanted to kick butt, I went from steriotypical to typical and about a heart beat and started looking for the intrinsic ridicule before my next leg spasm forced me to change positions*
