I just found out more details about an incident I heard about in Tennessee. A man at the saw mill tried to report that they were using illegal mexican labor, wich was cheaper and driving wages down and causing white men not to have jobs. Shortly there after he was cut in half in a truck accident.
Well, my daughter was driving the truck. But she didnt know a thing about the reporting. What she knew was this person was calling me a whore.
This is two people I know of that she has killed for basically the same reason, but in this case she was deliberately used by bad people to do something evil so they didnt have to get their hands dirty. (I still think the other case was family defence)
The problem here is that she has good feelings or she recognizes good people or lets positive emotions exist, but she cant prevent these feelings from being used by bad people to make her a threat to others.
For this reason we cant let her grow up like me, basicly unrestrained and sent to deal with other siblings and take on tasks suited to my level. We have to make her grow up a little faster but though she doesnt have a choice in this, we are teaching her to trust us to recognize a situation that justifies her expressing her skills and to improve on those skills to expand her natural range of influence. Because it is possible for her to be put to this purpose we can interact with her a lot more than we do with the majority of kids from our family that cant grow up free, but still she is one of the individuals, actually more individual than the free kids who are all going through the same process with few adjustments. She gets more of my mother's time than I do, gets things I look forward to a lot faster and we are all working on making her more comfortable a lot faster. But she isnt the only one who has days that suck and is in the best situation for her but isnt always aware of that to the level of emotional peace with the world.
*there are probably thousands of mexicans exactly like my daughter right now with similar thoughts and action processes, but my daughter is mine, and that makes her different in terms of what I can do for her. She has the option of exracurricular study that will enable her to be of more benifit (by our definition) to these others, we wont force her to do it but we will mention to her if others express interest so that she can think about it for the future*
