Gramps and I arranged a long time ago that he didn't want the $50 profit off my unit, but that if I took it and spent it myself it would cause resentment in my neighborhood. A lot of people around here can do things with that money and it would be better if he found a way to get it to them with the understanding that it kinda came from me. But its hard to explain to people I cant just go be white.
But a lot of black people have seen a lot of white revert people take their special clothes off and go back to "normal". I already went through that, I tried every mode of dress imaginable, and I never got to be white.
I know you don't care some of you, and why should you have to process things any more than anyone else, you don't and the same rules apply equally, we just didn't want to have to do bad things to a bunch of black people right off the bat. Somehow doing a bunch of bad things to a bunch of white people doesn't have the same aversion, but again, we've already been through everything with them and we aren't in the same group however they want to define it.
The Acting Dali Lama has finally admitted that my family is fully Tibetan (he realized that he's been receiving ritual cock suckings all his life and it disgusted him, hes trying to quit his post altogether but then what would he be?). That still doesn't make me fit in anywhere, doesnt change that whites are such assholes that my apearance makes everone who looks at me edgy, but it does mean I don't get attacked as much for dressing like my own ethnic group.
As for other groups I've passed through, they all tried to make me like them at some point, but either they or I realized that was impossible. Its not unusual for refugees to try to join other groups and its not unusual that we fail more than once.
Anyway, Tibetans are basically the ghetto blacks of China, not the house or office blacks or the field or construction site blacks, but the ones nobody can do anything with. I cant take that off without assitance and even without my head I think I'd still pass for contrary.
