Back in the old days we had two ways of talking, and when words made no impact we would find something that would. These days its more like the whole world is passive aggressive and we just want to annoy one another to death. I wonder how long that will hold out.
Anyway, I still don't see how this is really legal especially since Parker doesn't have Johnway's authority to evict paying tenants, or fail to renew leases for same tenants, but Gramps told me we had something planned if they really could legally do this, and that is Johnway has revoked Parker's authority to extend or grant leases at all and is closing the building. This is not to be read "tearing down the building" though and it means that the gentry and white purists can enjoy watch squatters shooting up in there for the seven year process it takes for the city to deal with a derelict building especially since we have a specific company for this building alone, that will no longer exist as of the last lease expiration.
So yesterday I had the experience yet again of trying to explain why no one has any sympathy for anything I've done or been able to prove to yet one more person who kept saying things like we can get you back to teaching and I kept having to say because slavery is a factor in my situation and I have worked in multiple fields already I have no confidence at all and neither does the FBI who helped me get my check that I can safely work at all, and I mean danger to the people like in my classroom. I said and I do that I hate to have to explain all this to people because I can't figure out a way to say this that people don't automatically jump to the conclusion that I'm crazy.
When I left I made lunch and went for a walk and the whole day I'd been thinking about overhearing people saying they want to show me I'm not special, I thought it was funny to change that to they want to single me out to tell me I'm not special, which is what they've been doing all my life, and whenever this not special conversation comes up it is usually because I'm saying I'm not a prostitute. I'm not required to have sex with you, I'm not going to make sell or use drugs. But the kind of people I have to say this to are not the kind you are probably picturing, and they are usually "good catholics" and have been since my first experiences here in Bloomington in the 70's.
So anyway, when I was sitting waiting for the legal guy word got around and back to Victor Bo about me being at Shalom and he sent some people in to find out what that was about. this one girl was like this is my territory and you will get no help here, and I was like if you want to go for it I could use a punching bag right now but I don't spar, I fight to kill. Neither of us said any of that, it was just all prison sign, that I picked up the last time I was homeless, though I figure she learned hers in prison.
Then she intercepted the legal guy on his way back to let me know it was my turn and commenced to pretend to be me, starting with hugging him in that genital bumping kind of way of her sort. When he was packing up to leave I said "hey are you the legal guy, I was on the list if you have just a little more time" and of course I couldn't have been more different than the woman who was jumping line and I said "that happens to me all the time" and when the work subject came up I kinda thought pretty loudly about how that happens to me all the time means at work. Though mostly I talked about what happened the last time I worked and how the situation of discrimination and harassment, for one thing was the only reason I would even be having this conversation on any level in this kind of place, but also was what cost me my last job and until that could be resolved and I know no one with any plans or solutions to that, I really really can't work, and I didn't have to get to the point where however bad it is when I try to hold a home, its ten times worse when they find out someone's given me a job.
We had the usual I see a white woman discussion, which again led to, then what am I as someone with a masters degree, no criminal record and no drug use doing here in the first place.
