Last night I woke up to some pain in my left side again briefly. I've been keeping my levels high of all the things that negate all that stuff so it passed quickly but it was clear people were trying to make me think I had gout, which I don't have and though they heard me make my evening protein shake I made it light protein and added chocolate to it so that I got a little more carbs. I didn't erase the extra protein I'd logged into lose it but I figured calorie wise at least it balanced the milk in my tea and coffee I didn't log.
Yesterday I started feeling wobbly a little right after some kind of swirl of witches approached me near Hopscotch and someone flashed a rainbow light in my eyes for a moment. I just wobbled home like I wrote about earlier. They are starting to try to be pretty active about trying to set off my pessimism and I'm starting to get pretty religious.
I don't know if I mentioned but I found HotZetiGer's video blog because I searched "mongolian swastika" on youtube and my name Pema Detsu means Dorje or that symbol in the middle of the two facing swastikas. I figure he invoked me.
I started drawing the two swastikas with the dorje in the center as an equilateral cross with a circle in the middle on paper and taped it all over above the doors and places in my kitchen where the door to come in is so that you can't miss it if you come in and are surrounded by them if you enter, but there are also gaps in the pattern to let energy out either because its neutral or it needs something worse to deal with it and it can leave and go find that. This is a local tradition and if you look at Navajo weavings and stuff from the south west they do geometric patterns but there is always a break in the pattern so that energy can enter and leave. not all cultures know to do this but its something El Diablo mentioned in person.
Anyway, people watching what I'm eating told me that if I'm not Mongolian I'm killing myself, and I had a talk with Shaggy and Sweet Potato about this and how it is possible to come up with an optimum diet for me because I'm pedigreed but that mixed people may have problems that require more protein or something, but they have other problems with protein so that they can't ever establish a balance that will get them to my level of function. Someone also pointed out something similar about our new friend, that he also is pure blooded and even if we see analogies to people around us here the techniques that work for him wont work to that degree here. I say to that degree, because even if they can't get to that level they are better than what is already here, and here special education means sitting unusual kids in a class with no real teacher and watching the clock till its time to go home. Even if they will always be child like and wont assimilate, I still say they can be a lot higher functioning than they already are.
When I was at Shalom too there was a guy with high functioning downs spectrum working there who seems pretty intellectually normal though as he pointed out we can all read each other's minds and I don't actually know how people seem based only on the words they use with others. But he is normal for the region in the sense that he was talking about having fluid in his paracardium issues. I sometimes suspect I have mild problems with that but I can manage them with suppliments especially because they made chelated iron available without prescription in the past 15 years or so. He should try that and selenium to see if it can prolong the time between surgeries, but I figure an increased protein diet would probably not have the same result for him as for me. though 5-htp probably would also help though he didn't seem to need it or takes it already.
*when I do start to get the physical signs associated with too much protein, I tend to read it rather as not enough carbs, I put some chocolate in my shake or eat some more bread or something, get a donut things like that, and I know that's what people do on the steppes too*
