So I don't know why, tunnel vision or something, but I couldn't find the right activation number on the phone I bought yesterday until I had made a third trip to the library, then all I had to do was turn my phone on and off and I was well on my way to using up the high speed connection data I had just bought in one day, though slower just means I have to let you tube jump and stop one time through then wind back the time and let it play through right. Pandora takes about two minutes to load in the slower unlimited speed but then it plays just fine also. And they have Yat Kha now, though probably only Tuva.Rock but it allows me to hear whatelse is classed with them, not mongolia or tuva music but like the moody kind of stuff I listened to in high school that reminds people of vampires though its not as trite as it was back then and there are current bands in that genera.
Mom and I were talking about noodle culture and how Sweet Potato felt that we all needed a break from one another so he didn't explain things to me well and told her I might be a mistaken identity and they both knew that wasn't true, but we needed space for awhile. Mom is a very snuggly person and I needed to dry off a little. I did ask her if she had assistance as she was following me on my walks and stuff, she pretty much said she did though they all work for her. Xoxo could tell that I was right with Mom again too, and that has been a problem for us since they all look up to her even if she isn't always sure or ever sure why anyone made her the boss of anything.
Last night I tweeted that the storm is here, but someone told me on the way over that its not the storm arriving its the eye passing and that I already have felt this way for long periods of time and I know how to deal with it. Not everyone does, but it is the reason a lot of Mongolian women look disengaged from the world around us. I was looking at images of Otgoo for example and she actually looks more engaged with her sunglasses on. People were wondering what she did with the guy in the videos but I pointed out her pearls weren't white.
This energy is the reason that unless we are razor sharp or bonded young enough to someone who is going to be around regularly and we live in the middle of nowhere most women who have this trait are encouraged to be exclusive to the company of other women. The sales pitch is that no one will restrict interaction of that kind and the consequence matrix is easier to navigate. But some of us though we get a little lonely or wistful about women, are needed in the guys world so that the guys don't turn into another species all together.
Those girls are that way though, and I was too, because we are always pregnant, and back to back like that all the time it is considered a trouble or too heavy a burden to also manage serious relationships and children at the same time. Its like the world over though, no one wants us involved unless there is a child of special needs, like one way or another is our fault or not.
some of us have the capacity to be of some help about this and some of us don't and that also makes distinctions among us, and I suppose its like anything that comes of the weather, it may not be your fault but it is your reality.
