They got a hold of insecticide again, which is a nerve agent that kills bugs by giving them seizures, makes them curl up and shake and then die, possibly by binding with all the b vitamins and protein in their bodies so that its really a kind of starvation.
In general avoiding acidity and not overdoing carbs is a good idea, but they use some things that can make you pretty sick if your carbs are normal low, so sometimes you do have to increase them somewhat, that stuff that feels like a period is about to start tends to go away with some carbs for some reason, it seems to effect even women who are four years or more since their last period, I don't know what the mechanism is, but I've noticed certain pains that tend to be associated with whatever they are doing having a hormonal activity that happen long before the moment before menstruation feeling, that is what I eat mushrooms to minimize. The past few days I've gotten this minimized to the point of having actual hot flashes, though in general I'm running cooler these days than I have over the past few years.
I wasn't sure about things with "estrogenic activity" but I got to looking at what is said about these things, they bind with estrogen receptors, meaning that they block estrogen rather than do the work of estrogen. I was thinking about that regarding whether or not to smoke sage and whether or not soy is helpful. It is and is not increasing my estrogen levels as far as I can tell by any signs I've come to associate with estrogen at this point such as back pain.
The swelling of lumps or the stiffness in my left side that I think of as little organs of some sort swelling up is something that I'm fighting against with the mushrooms. I sometimes take a day or two off eating them so that my body gets the idea that it needs to do its own work and not rely on foreign substances.
I suspect that chelation is also taking place and that the cocktails are being tweaked to be as deadly as possible, but this community has run out of people who can be killed by any combination of these means. I don't know what will happen when they figure that out, they will probably move operations to another community and leave us to people who use guns, but I'm here in the first place because I'm very good at conflict resolution, a skill I learned because people try to send people with guns against me a lot.
My bedroom is getting pretty stuffy, I don't want to open the window because they will sit right outside it and smoke meth, so I sealed up the register as well as I could and covered it with throw rugs and put a fan on top of that. But when I went in there this morning after that it smelled like the neighbor's cigarettes in there. On January 1 I will start writing up concern forms about that. I will probably type one up to staple to the form that I can just keep handing in. I'm trying to think about that as a form letter, Date____ Time_____ Cigarette smell in my bedroom and closet. Really I could just write that 100 times but that sorta seems like I've been bad.
Maybe I could consolidate that so I only go in weekly with that, I doubt he's going to take the ban seriously, but I know when he's somehow breached the plane of his rented space because of the cigarette smell in various areas.
Its pretty insidious around here really, with pinheads being run out of the library in favor of drug dealers who know that they aren't "special". I was wondering about Ms Skillman, and Aunt Peg never planned to give Catholic Charities anything, but made one last phone call to her to ask about whether it was possible anything she was looking at in front of her face could actually be reality and she told her that nobody on the planet could see such a thing except a liar.
My grandfather was talking to me a little today, he never processed the money world part of medicine in the past, but will need to because I was thinking about how to formalize that women are money distributors but not money earners in general, and men are more about the deals involved with things that are traded for money and there will be no forage that isn't regulated in various ways. But women also need to know about how money is earned and the different tasks involved with that. I was thinking about all the men whose "mothers should have taught them better" that working women are complaining about. I think that says it all pretty much and we need to really talk it out or something regarding what our stress limits are and what our real ambitions are. Just like women can't learn to put up with constant sexual advances from an ever changing group of people lots of men can't learn a variety of behaviors, but not all people who are hardwired for different behaviors are suitable for all positions in work. Did we ever work out the work distribution so that everything got done that needed to be, and now people want to add so much to it like arbitrary race differentiation. There is real race differentiation and arbitrary race differentiation and it seems by design that people want us to ignore what is real and pretend to see what isn't, and somehow in the midst of all of this the big money is in the hands of women who can't process any way to act about things than something that is based on what we see in front of us.
