Hello Travis,
I wanted to let you know how things are going over here at 3:52 am where car horns are honking in the parking lot and although my heat is turned completly off, the heat in my room is fluctuating wildly from super hot to cold and a flash photograph was taken near my window at a time of around 11:30 pm. As you know, there is an ongoing situation of intollerance of my presence in any building for some reason unspecified yet persistant and an organized effort is ensuing under whatever motivation to prevent sleeping at this or any other location at night or otherwise for me, and possibley others.
At this point I am only experincening near complete sleep deprivation for about 3 days which is less than the maximum I am capable of enduring without sleep walking as far as I know.
I know it is difficult to catch people in the act and to accurately determine if someone is trying to cause others trouble or if maybe they are sleep walking or preforming some strange exercising ritual that requires them to stomp in a manner they dont stomp during the day for no other benifit than their own health without regards to others.
But I have noticed some trends
It is peacefull and quiet in this neighborhood until whatever time I log off the internet for the night, at which time cars begin honking, stomping becomes the only mode of walking and radios in cars are cranked to the maximum. If I log off at 9pm it starts at 9pm if I log off at 12:30 pm that is also when it will begin. Conicidence? Who knows. Consistant? Absolutely.
It could be an infectious disease that is spreading. One incosiderate jerk slams a door, and the next person becomes irritable and then the next. Maybe the whole building is feuding amongst themselves. But to me, it seems like it is only focused on me for a reason others will not explain, because it must be so obvious I must know it already, but it is hard for some people to admit why they do things when they dont seem to be concious that they are doing it. I mean look at those angel faces, come on, could they be lying, of cource not. Such good boys and girls never do such things, and I am of course crazy or less than white or something not worthy of sleeping that cannot be ascertained by observing the stomps and honks and heat fluctuations.
I dont feel I can do anything at all about this. I cant move because Ive done that litterally 7 times now.
But on a night like tonight I am warmed and comforted by something several of my students have told me, that soon these very same dears, or ones very like them will have in their responsablity a nuclear power plant ten times the size of chernoble, staffed very much the same way as chernoble, that example of fine management for the generations, by political favor.
Yes I am proud that for endeavors like the new power plant that GE and Westinghouse are negotiating with French engeneers to build at this very momet I am serving as a means for which young people around the country can prove their loyalty, team spirit and responsabilty. For when given the task to prevent one undesirable, or many undesirables, from competing for credetials in a fair and honest way they have not been lax in the task so great and important.
Why these leaders of tomarrow, through my very presence are learning to work with the US mail carriers, the Police, administrators and professors and of cource their fellow students to keep people from the simple base needs of the piramid of need we all learn in psych 101. Every day they show they can apply the latest psychological research on the causes of social problems in such a bright example of organization. Why they may have even proved supremly skilled in the use of new technology such as the internet, for it is often that in the evening despite the strong and skillfully installed filters aimed at allowing each of 30 residences to use the internet without anyone being knocked off line, some may even manage to evade this and draw their full band width to themselves. Such smart promising leaders of tomarrow they are.
Anyway, I will continue to marvel at their amazing organization skill as I remain wakefull through the night, wishing if only I could be as worthy as them to a quite place to sleep durring the day other than here like they have, if only I was so smart as them, *sigh*.
Anyway I thought you might enjoy to share this wonderful experince and that you might share with me the hopeful picture of a better world tomarrow that I can envision as I lay here listeing to the heavy little footsteps towards the next chernoble times ten.
Best regards
Holly
