Hello Ms. Deering,
I don't think its neccessary to waste your time any further with this case. If it is not illegal for a landlord to kick out anyone he wants over any pretext the only way even in court discrimination could be deemed "prooven" is with the agreement of the right number of people as there is no possibility to substantiate anything. Even if my landlord admited to be a racist he could just say I didnt feel like renewing her lease and he gets off scott free.
I dont have the money for a lawyer anyway. Everyone is tired of what they call my "lies" and I wont get a pro bono lawyer either.
I dont know anything except that I was adopted at the age of 7. while I was old enough to remember what came before that, if adults are going to lie about it, how can I say what my name used to be, what my real race is, what my childhood was like, or even that Im sure I was older than 7?
How can I get justice in any case without an identity that I myself can understand?
I know in this country, while hard work is good for the soul, opportunity is a gift over which we have no control. I spent the whole time I could have gained the means to go to a better univeristy as a racially confused liar who didnt know up from down and who was not allowed to study or excell by the very people I had to call parents.
I know that this is nothing that can be proven or dealt with under the laws of Indiana and the United States, that my social status as a slave with no rights except those that can be granted or taken away by the whims of those who can change my name race age and even my familial status to suit their tastes is something that will not be resolved under any existing laws.
The word that best describes my social status is a word I hear often in my environment. Its a word that means I am invisible unless I am doing wrong and that no good deed or neutral deed will ever recieve recognition. If I want to exist I must be a criminal, because only my crimes will be noticed.
Im going to be kicked on the street.
I erroniously believed that I could gain the privelidge of an opportunity by attending university and instead found myself in debt that will exclude me from housing though I expect to have saved $3000 by august to move with.
I am the n word. I dont care what you think that means, I know when people say that word it is me.
I am a slave now, not in the past.
You can judge me as well as anyone else based on as little as you know about me, just as well as anyone else, but I am the childlike dependant, the voiceless discomfort and stench, I am the one who can expect that no matter what anyone does to me, it will never be listening to me.
This happens to people in this country every day, working renting people become homeless. Freedom is due to the whims of those who can help you when people exercize their rights against your needs, and without any one who sees me as part of their group, I will be homeless again as I was before I got my two degrees.
Im sorry your organization doesnt have any authority or power. I wish I could do something with my skills to change that, but I dont have that right.
Best,
Holly Oeding
