Roslynns bakery up in Indy used to have this Zoo promotion, where you could buy so many cookies or what not and get a reduced Zoo admission. So I went with Heather and Becky and Grandma and when we got home I couldnt remember the name of the Baboons so I was asking uncle bo what they were called and he said well what did they look like and I said they had bright blue butts and he said "oh then those were butt monkies". The next year we went and I said "oh oh there are the Butt Monkies" and someone important told Grandma not to bring me back next year. The thing is, I think I was there for prostatution purposes to begin with. And that got me thinking years later that if I had not said something like butt monkies I would have gotten a lot of comportment training but I would have been a prostatute.
Around this same time (I mean when I was thinking) I noticed that the young people around at university wouldnt communicate with me at all. I had also recently become aware that Dad's friend Dennis wanted to abuse me sexually and may have done so when I was a kid, and that Dad and Dennis had lots of friends around IU and they wouldnt be communicated with at all. In fact they behaved oddly, like they believed me to be violent, and I have never been violent, or abusive to animals and I had to sell a horse cause I couldnt even get neccessary violence down right, and I got to thinking more. Especially thinking because people were being overtly violent towards me but people were acting like they couldnt see it.
I theorized that they were percieved as the good kids cause dad and dennis and all their friends around IU of proffessors, administrators, health professionals, liked these kids cause whatever else they were, they let them monkey with their butts without complaint when they were children, and so they got to learn good comportment, but that they didnt have to use what they had learned around people like me, and I had been marked with some tic that they could recognize, and they were also marked to be recognized as part of the group and I called that group Butt Monkeys.
