So I was watching a video about what is called something that translates to the dark side from Mongolian but got a call from El Diablo and decided to mention him kinda to the poster because he was talking about lightening and we had talked about that, and he seemed to be having more than some L2 issues with his chatter.
Then someone said I could be kicked out of Mongolia for that, but I said not really because I was raised by Mongolian men, and though that isn't normal for a woman, a woman has to have learned how to be a woman from other women when she was a little girl and I never met any Mongolian women when I was little. Really the first one I can remember interacting with at all was Ain't Bee, and I've been avoiding her because she has the means to live a woman's life and I don't and all the politics I would expose her to would be needless burdens for now.
Irresponsible contact is frowned upon, but I figure I can't harm any guy who can ramble about dark side energy on the internet. Though I'd say some different things about it, like I never liked calling it the dark side and said that the light is probably coming from an alien space ship where they are using religion to make us good lab rats. Still the region round we are called like the dark side or bad like the Tibetan word for it is really close to a Chinese word for bad.
I have this problem with a lot of my memories of things I was taught about this stuff, but I've also assimilated to the local earth, and another thing I discussed with El Diablo was that teachers around here have always found it easier to teach people who scoff and argue than people who try to absorb their every word, especially because memorizing these teachings isn't typically very useful, but it is a sign that you have become salient of them when something reminds you of the time you heard this topic discussed once before and you can hear these memories as a source of encouragement and give encouragement to others by this.
Though I kinda think the guy is working for the government trolling for people with an interest in Mongolia and I got the message from the guy's down the hall that he's getting a lot of nibbles from various things and considers me a rainbow trout, though I sent the message back that the rainbow trout is just a finger puppet.
*the only thing I complain that I didn't learn from the women, especially because everyone can load a camel, is the yodeling thing that women do. I actually do the men's singing and I'm not talking about throat singing here, but that thing where I get upset about something and make a song that is heard all over town thing, though I found a video of a woman who could do khoomei like the guys and it was most boring thing I'd ever failed to sit through, and I know my sound with sygyt isn't the same as the guys and it never will be for that reason. I can do a khoomei ish kind of sound for brief periods but it sounds more like an old Tibetan style when secular music still existed there, and you can tell the difference if you can tell at all between Mongols and Tuvans and if there were any still around the old Tibetans and it may all be completely different techniques*
