Its not helping that I'm listening to Yat Kha singing Exodus.
Anyway, I think I was enjoying a calm before the real storm and I've just been hit with menopause for real. Luckily puberty really sucked so I'm used to be being in weirded out random hell land.
I was sort of wondering lately if I got a blast of energy from shamans or something, that still might be the case but everything is lining up really well with my hormones in terms of when I need energy and when I can get away with feeling a little low on blood.
The thing about timing is right now my ability to be afraid of every little thing or even be cowed by force seems to have disappeared (its black magic woman now, I wonder if Carlos has heard this yet) and I'm only a little worried about that because I know the pen is mightier than the finger nail and how easily skin comes off people already, having had cause to test that out before.
I'm also pretty sure that no matter how crazy this phase of life starts to get there is nothing anyone can pin me down and cut off me that will make the fun stop.
*If I had a dollar for everyone around me speculating on just what drug I'm on right now (the song Yanesi punk always sounds like if you mess with holly oeding you will die, even if you just ding her up a bit to me) it would really help with my moving expense fund, but they just went into my bathroom and found that I'm not kidding about being really low on blood right now, actually I thought I was doing better this morning but when I got up moving around I was feeling pretty squirrely, and I saw that one without a tail again yesterday, he seems to know me*
